Last Monday, I was spiraling into an abyss of resistance. My husband is gone for a month of week-days, working most weekends and I had not had a moment to myself in ages. The refrain I sang throughout the day was “I need a break.” And I had no respite in sight. Traveling husband, fired babysitter, kid refusing to nap anymore. It’s all Mama, 100% of the time. Lamenting my need for a break and lack of said break was making me miserable.
And then I *remembered* surrender. Things are what they are. Fight them or flow with them. That is the choice.
So I found breaks in new places. We simply did less. I expected less of my kid and myself. This is how we are getting through. With smiles and hugs! Having fun! Still exhausted, but less worked up about it.
When the tire is flat, you can either spend all night wondering why and complaining about it or you can fix the tire already.
That is all I can muster right now.
love.
Yay! You’re giving such a great gift of peace to yourself, your family, and everyone around you. This is a wonderful testimony to the power of Surrendering. I’m so happy to have read this….we’re all going to be alright.
Thank you so much for writing and for your support. I feel that! (And sorry it has taken me so long to respond. I am finally returning to a familiar daily rhythm!) Yes. We are going to be alright. LOVE.